Today was better. Don't have a solid calorie count, but I only ate three or four Red Vines, a bagel, a little more than a serving of rice, some of my dad's cream of mushroom with beef stuff, and some milk.
So Chase and I are no longer friends. After I explained to him every reason why he had hurt me, he texted me back and said that I was being accusatory, that I was just trying to hurt him, and basically, that my feelings meant nothing to him. And I texted back (with Natalie's help at figuring something out to say): "You know what? I just realized that I don't need you anymore."
I'm going to mourn the end of this friendship and the end of the good part of our relationship (from kindergarten to before the end of junior year), but I deserve better, I have better, and I will find better. So it hurts, but I feel relieved and liberated. That's the first time I've ever said something scathing over text :) Natalie helped me.
But yeah, I have real friends. And Chase and I just grew apart. I feel like I grew up, and he didn't, in the realm of friendship and emotional maturity. And our friendship had been good. Great. Amazing. But he's not that person anymore and neither am I, and I need something different. So I don't feel too awful.
About Me
- Stina
- The name's Christina. I'm a freshman at Washington State University. I'm trying to lose weight. My goal is to lose sixty pounds. While this is a public blog, only a couple people know about it, but it's helpful to write it down in a public way, so I feel like maybe someone is reading somewhere. I use this kind of stuff as my expression, and now that I'm on a facebook hiatus, I feel really isolated. So here's to me trying.
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