Day 46

Egg Beater eggs
Four pieces of turkey bacon (which was actually quite nice... different, but good)
Two Honey Wheat bagels w/ butter

So far, today has been good. I also spent a couple of hours in Issaquah at Barnes and Noble. I won the library's writing contest so I was spending my prize ($50 at B&N). I ended up only getting one book, a sequel to Pride and Prejudice. Right before the double wedding, Bingley has, um... a problem. And Darcy's solution is to give him a copy of "The Kama Sutra." How could I say no to such a book?

And I'm reading another book called "In the Garden of Sin" that I checked out from the library. Hey, it's a book about courtesans and learning the "erotic arts." What could possibly attract me more? Hahah, attract. Erotic arts. Sex. Hahaha.

But I'm feeling okay today. I need to talk to Snave when school starts back up. I don't think I can do my solos. There's too much work and stress to be put into it, and I just don't think I can do it. And I feel bad because I was really excited about it, but... eh. I think taking care of myself and my health and my sanity needs to come first before anything else, and then school, and then work, and then everything else. Unfortunately, s/e is kind of at the bottom of the list, all things considered. I think I'm perfectly within my rights to say that.

Speaking of which, I only have history notes and my CI packet to do before school starts, and the history notes are only on two sections. Easy. And the CI packet... I just have to do. lol. I can be pretty lazy.

You know what I just realized? That's really negative, calling myself lazy. I'm anything but lazy. I work harder than most people in my grade, than most people in general. I work really hard. I'm not procrastinating. I'm choosing to spend my time in a different manner, other than doing my homework. It will get done. I'm consciously choosing to not do it now because I know I will have ample time later. I am a hard worker. I am not lazy.