Day 55

2 big bowls of Honey Nut Cheerios
1 Honey Wheat bagel with butter
2 slices of bread with butter
1 grande hot chocolate
Rice and teriyaki chicken nugget-like things
1 Lemon Ice

MY WORRY LIST:

- going to work
- eFolio presentation
- not getting into college
- looking like a fool
- gaining weight
- the new week
- not ever falling in love
- not ever being able to write love
- being anxious
- not getting enough sleep
- eating too much
- eating too little
- not losing weight
- looking horrible at prom
- being a loser in college
- doing stupid things
- getting pulled over
- always being alone
- losing my friends
- not being cool
- failing college
- failing at life
- not being the kind of person I want to be

Ugh, I'm just so anxious and nervous about everything. I hate it so much.

But today, hung out with Ben Olson. That was a lot of fun. He's cool.

Yesterday, drove my first non-family passenger; it was Chase. And we went to Morgan's house to study. The three of us, we ended up talking about 9/11, Bush, and moving away and leaving everyone for college. It was interesting. It was good, though. We did get studying done, though.

But on a whole, I think I'm... okay. Better than I was during break. But I'm still nervous and anxious. And I still can't write. Everything I try to write is bad. v_v Dislike.