Ughhhh...

I'm on my period, so I feel like crap. Well, not entirely, but I just feel gross. It's not good. But so far, I'm not craving anything. It's just driving me mad that we have cookies in our pantry and they're chocolate chip and they're delicious and I want them. So maybe I am craving something. But it's not too bad. I ate a really good breakfast and I got a lot of good sleep last night, so the day's feeling pretty good so far.

All in all, I'm feeling pretty positive, too. I'm noticing mental differences, due to the healthy foods I've been eating, and it hasn't even been a week. I feel lighter and more able to get up and do things, even if I just want to stay on the couch and relax because my stupid uterus is bleeding and cramping. *sigh* It's just annoying. But yeah, I am actually feeling positive, despite the tone of this post.

I'm also watching Mythbusters. Christina likes this.

Getting a normal amount of sleep is also helping me relax. I've been really stressed out (I'm still a bit stressed out -- I have to do financial aid stuff for college) but it's getting a bit easier to bear.

I just don't like, however, that I'm always thinking about food now, but I think that'll go away as eating better and less becomes more of a habit. Now, I have to think about it consciously and make sure to eat small amounts, but it'll go away in time, hopefully. I don't want to stress about every little bite I eat, but right now, I think I do need to stress (even if I don't like it) because this stress will make sure I don't screw up.

It's just a bit... disheartening, how long this road is going to be. But then again, I didn't gain this much weight overnight, so I'm not going to lose it overnight. But it's going to be worth it. Being at a healthy weight and having healthy habits will be so worth it, and I'm young, so losing this weight is going to be comparatively easy, when compared to losing it when I'm thirty or forty. I want to reinvent myself, and losing this weight, however, is only one part of that.

I need to work on being less stressed and being just a better person. That idea, however, isn't really good for my ego because I think I'm a pretty good person right now. I just need to work on saying more nice things and not thinking so many mean things about people in general. It's just not nice, and I wouldn't want someone thinking those thoughts about me, either. I also need to work on NOT PROCRASTINATING. I promised myself I wouldn't procrastinate EVER and now I find myself doing it! >.< It's bad.

Speaking of which, I shall now go finish my CI homework. It's only doing some basic math and making a pie chart and then finding the definition and importance of around ten terms. It shall be most easy.