Exercise, pt. 2

So... this whole exercising thing is depressing me a bit. I did one minute of pretending to be jumping rope and then one minute of jumping jacks, and I was out of breath. I'm so out of shape that it's borderline pathetic. I'm loath to admit it, but I'm a bit out into the abyss of being pathetic. [/emo]

(You see how much of an emotional rollercoaster this is going to be for me. One second, I'm on cloud nine because I feel like I can do this, the next I'm disheartened. Ugh.)

I'm trying to do some easier ones (ones that don't trigger my asthma), and it's sort of helping my mood, I guess. I think I have a complex where I have to do everything really well all of the time. It just bugs me when I don't do well at everything. It's not a really obsessive thing, where I lose sleep over the fact I didn't get the best score on a test, but it does bother me that exercising is hard for me. I'm just taking BABY STEPS, and even those baby steps are hard for me. It's depressing.

So far, I've done jumping jacks, pretending like I'm jumping rope, some stretches, clenching my tummy and butt. I really hope all of this emotional crap pays off, though I have my suspicions that it's hormonal because I'm on my period. That, however, doesn't mean I don't feel those emotions any less because they're caused by hormonal imbalances due to my period, but just... ugh.

Also, I'm hoping I can keep up this exercise and do it at least semi-regularly. Maybe every day? Every other day? Any time I remember about it? One can only hope.